It's late and I'm wide awake, like usual!

Well, it's 4:30am here and I'm sitting up on the computer. That's nothing new though. I've been off work for a week now due to being on Worker's Comp. I was walking to the building from my car last Friday and there was new snow on the ground. It was covering ice... which I happened to fall on. I bruised my hip and sprained my wrist. It hurt like heck! I got in the building and immediately had to state filling out paperwork, before I could even get myself an ice pack. Go figure! Anyway, I finished my paperwork and they sent a replacement in for me so I could be seen by a doctor. Nothing was broken, just banged up pretty good and they sent me home. I went to work Saturday morning, but I wasn't supposed to be there due to my restrictions for my wrist. Yea, management isn't so great about letting you know those things. Probably because they don't want to get out of bed and drive to work at 8:00am on a Saturday morning either! My supervisor came in at noon and told me I couldn't work with my wrist because I wasn't able to physically restrain youth or protect myself, so she told me to go enjoy my week off and get my paperwork filled out.

I spent the first couple days at home on a heating pad and with my pain meds and muscle relaxers. I really didn't do much but sleep and watch TV when I was awake. My grandparents took one of the dogs so I didn't have to worry about that. The other dog just sleeps all day so he wasn't a problem. Ryan helped me out a lot so I didn't have to get out of bed other than to shower or hit the bathroom..... you get the picture. For some reason the pain meds made me really emotional and I cried on and off all day Tuesday thinking about my birthday the next day. I just got caught up on the idea that because I'm getting older, so is everyone else. I thought that this is the age I am going to get married and try to start a family and that really hit me. The thought that my children may never actually remember my grandparents, who practically raised me, was very upsetting to me. I desperately want my children to remember them, to know them. I talked to a good friend of mine that day and he told me that no matter what happens, my grandparents and parents will live on through me and my actions. That statement gave me some comfort and relief thankfully.

Wednesday was my 26th birthday. It seems strange to say 26, not sure why, but it has affected me more than 25. It's probably just because I am getting married in 8 months and will actively attempt to make a child. Wow, that's huge for me!! Anyway, my grandma drove down to meet me for dinner at Applebee's and my sister and niece met me as well. It was really nice to be with some of my family that day since I had been so emotional. Dad couldn't make it to dinner, but he drove down to give me my present and a hug earlier in the day. That made me happy! Of course they told them it was my birthday and they did the embarrassing singing thing. I still enjoyed it though. I also got well over 100 text messages and messages on Facebook from friends and family. That made me feel really special! It is nice to be reminded that people love and care for you sometimes.

After dinner, Ryan and I met up with my best friend, her boyfriend, and some of our guy friends at a local restaurant. We had some drinks there and had a great time! We moved to another bar a bit later and the night was just great! Ryan seemed to enjoy me being so laid back and happy for once. I am always overly anxious and tense, but not that night. I gave up around midnight though because he had to work the next morning. I had a really good time.

We are leaving for St. Louis in the morning for the weekend. I am so ready to get out of this town for a few days. We have an awesome hotel room near Union Station for free thanks to my mom. We are going to meet up with some of my friends from college, I am thrilled! My best guy friend is meeting up with us for dinner tomorrow night. I haven't seen him in over a year! Saturday we are going to see our friend who is also a tattoo artist. I am getting my tattoos touched up and Ryan is getting a new side piece. It looks like is it going to be amazing! Then, we are going out for drinks and to see a band that night. Sunday we are getting massages and then going to the Science Center. That has be a favorite of mine since I was a little girl. I can't wait to go again! So, we have a busy weekend, but I am looking forward to it.

Ok, I think I've said enough for one night. It's not really too interesting yet, but this is a journal after all. It's still my life, as boring as it might be! Until next time....kwa heri!